Open reply to Youtuber Christine Grace because my comments seem to disappear..

It is about this video:
Here she clearly shows her ignorance about transsexuality, calling them Just men dressing up as women.
It was quite difficult to watch, most of all because she often has good, to the point videos about Modern Dating problems.

My comment:

Perhaps you should take your own advice and LEARN about the phenomenon of trans-sexuality. It isn't simply a man dressing up as a woman.
Talking like that shows total willful ignorance about the subject.
You describe trans women as dangerous men dressed up as a woman
You are scared of them, right?
I can tell you, 99% of them are more scared of people like you than you are of them.
And they have all reason to be scared of judgmental, in most cases religious people refusing to educate themselves self about the subject, and who are acting like they have a permanent lease on intelligence.
You keep mentioning studies, to back up your opinion.
There are equally many studies that confirm the existence of transsexuality and challenges these people constantly have to live through.
There are idiots, yes I call them idiots, who believe homosexuality is a choice, well trans sexuality is a CURSE to the people experiencing it.
It is not a mental illness when you have a female mind, but you are born in the WRONG body.
Just try to imagine that feeling…
They are disgusted about their own body, as you are disgusted by then
Of course some of them are loudmouths, but thy NEED to be, to make people aware that they exist,
I repeat, 99% of them are more scared of people like you, then you are of them.
Come on, you are obviously not dumb, but you are definitely misinformed. 

 

I absolutely not think that she is stupid, but somehow my comments seem to disappear.
I wonder why?

The girl I named Janice

I got off my motorbike and there was a woman standing with the homeless newspaper, like you often see at Dutch supermarkets, but I was too occupied by getting a shopping cart to notice her any further.
I was just doing some shopping and would do the same thing as I often do when I see a homeless person, a six-pack of bottles of mineral water and a large package of chocolate bars or whatever was lying around.
After paying and packing the groceries, the intention was to give this to the homeless woman before I would load the groceries bag on my motorbike, but I couldn't find her right away among the people.
Oh well, I still had to go to a few other shops and with the bag in my hand I walked there when I saw her standing there again.

She was wearing the usual clothes that you often see homeless people, but she wore them differently than others, with some flair
This t brought up something of recognition that I couldn't immediately place.
She had short, fading to gray, red hair, a face full of freckles and two lively bright blue eyes, I only noticed after my gaze was drawn to a scar that ran from her ear a little way down her cheek to her neck.
So I handed her the bag with things I bought her, and got a look of recognition: "Ned? Is that you?"
I was momentarily taken aback when I suddenly recognized her: "Janice?"

Towards the end of the eighties of the last century, I was a single struggling musician and had taken the job of sound engineer for a now long forgotten Dutch band that was about to make a European tour.

There were still a few things to arrange and while looking for the tour manager I "caught" the singer Tony, a guy of just twenty, in the tour bus, and he was with full dedication doing "the dirty"  with one of those groupie girls That often hang around at those kinds of events.
Now that was not the first time that I noticed this,  and with an "oops" I closed the curtain and with the thought, "nice ass" I looked further for the tour manager.
Later that afternoon, I had a chat with the singer and saw the girl walking across the parking lot and asked: "Who is that? Do you have a new girlfriend?"
He pointed at the girl, "You mean her? Nah, she was waiting for me when I came in, I've never seen her before, and I thought why not. "
"And now?" I asked. "Nothing, I told her to leave the bus after we finished" was the answer, "for all I care you can have her".
What happened was not unusual in the music scene and I had seen it often in my own time as a singer and guitarist, but I never had the pleasure that a groupie was waiting in my room.

I saw her again that day hanging around with the roadies who were checking the equipment, and then the moment came that I mustered up some courage and walked up to her.
"What are you doing here?" I asked her, "can I help you?"
She looked at me: "I would like to come along, is that okay?" As I saw her, she couldn't be older than 19 at most and I asked her: "Where do you live, how old are you actually and can you just leave?"
"I don't live anywhere, I'm traveling around, and I'm 18 so an adult" 
She showed me a passport with letters that I couldn't read but in the English part it turned out that she was from Greece, which in itself was remarkable because she had orange/red hair, was covered in freckles and spoke Dutch almost without an accent.
If there was any kind of accent it sounded more like English, but it absolutely was her photo on the passport, there was no doubt about it.
I took the plunge and said: "If I let you come along, will you be my girlfriend on the tour?"
"Only if you know the magic word, or give me a name that you think suits me" was her very unusual answer.
"Seriously?"
"Yes seriously" she said.

I thought for a moment and then it came to me “Janice, I think that’s a nice name for you, what do you think?”
She jumped and clapped her hands, “yes nice, and what’s your name?”
“I’m Ned, the sound technician of this traveling circus”, I told her and pointed at the rented truck with a sleeping cabin and the trailer in which the equipment was to be transported,
“And that’s the vehicle I’ll be living in for the next few weeks”.
“Can I look inside ?” I said "sure"and we climbed aboard the cabin.
This went really fast, and I have to admit that I still saw her busy with Tony in the tour bus, and that of course hadn’t left me cold.
Inside, I dropped onto the bed behind the seats, “and this is the bed”.
The rapid progress with this girl really turned me on, and she had noticed that I was “interested” in her.
She tilted her head, leaned forward to my face and said: “you are sweet” and gave me a long kiss.
Then she jumped up, crawled back a bit, and before I knew it the clothes were everywhere, and we were making love in the bed of the truck.
A moment later she looked at me and said: “You are Sweet, Ned-the- Soundman-of-this-traveling-circus” as if it were my full name, “and I would love to be your girlfriend on this tour”.
The tour itself was not very special, the number of tickets sold was disappointing, but Janice made it my highlight of the year.
Although I had expected her to be interested in the other band members, she was always with me.
She helped set up and learned very quickly how things worked, and after the time in bed we couldn't keep our hands off each other. I once called her hot as lightning, and she liked that, she just was so sweet and supportive
When packing up for the next  gig, I got into an argument with the singer about the disappointing number of visitors during the progress of the tour,
"As if Ned can do anything about that" Janice once shouted at him, whereupon he called her a slut, and I made it clear to him that I didn't appreciate that.
When the tour ended, it was also more or less the end of the band, succumbed to misplaced star allures and misbehavior.
It was also the end of my short but passionate relationship with Janice.
I asked her if she wanted to stay, but she wanted to move on, she wouldn't be able to keep it up if she had to stay in one place for too long.
With a heavy heart, we said goodbye…

Now she was suddenly standing there again in front of me, both 28 years older and Janice apparently still a wandering existence without a fixed address.

“Is that really you? Ned-the-Soundman?” She looked at me with wide open eyes. “And you brought me something, how sweet!”
I looked at the plastic bag with chocolate cookies and water bottles and said: “Now that I know it’s you, do you mind if I give it to the other person?”
She looked at me disappointed, but I quickly continued, “Because you are worth much more to me … and … if you want of course, you are terribly welcome, and I would like to take you to my home".
She pointed to my motorcycle and said: “on that ?”
I said “not?”
“Yes, of course,” she exclaimed, “with you always and can I be your girlfriend again?”.
I opened the top case on the rear of the motorcycle and took out my second helmet.
Once seated on the back, she put her arms around my waist and we drove away.
We passed a group of astonished people who suddenly saw me taking off with a homeless person.

When we got home she turned out, not to have changed at all, nor had I by the way.
At the end of the clothes trail to the bedroom we continued where we had stopped 28 years ago, she was still just as sweet as I remembered her.
She told lots of stories of where she had been and her experiences, good and bad, like once she almost got  killed when she was mugged and this caused  the long scar on her face.
I didn't care about that scar, she was still my sweet Janice.
We were together again, for a few months even, until her wandering blood started to itch again, and I couldn't convince her to stay any longer.
But, even though I still don't know her real name, I have offered her a place where she can come home to if she decides to end her wandering existence.
I wonder where she is now...

I'm in love with a trans woman

This is an unscripted rant, so prepare

 No I am not dead, I was just busy doing other things..
You know what it is, to much to do, just not enough time.
Spending my time on YouTube, developing my anime child Ivy to a twitter and YouTube personality, and at my age I never thought I would ever fall in love again.

Now the story:

I have always  been sympathetic to the LGBT++ community. 
Not because they ARE LGBT++, but because they are most usually loving and caring people.
Years ago I posted a blog about how bad I feel that because of bigotry, stupidity and simple intolerance transgender women are almost forced in to doing sex work, like prostitution or porn just to make a living.
These girls are not converted or modified men!a
You convert or modify hardware like motorcycles cars houses, but not human beings.
Transgender persons are people with desires dreams and wishes for a happy life, just like you and me.

As a man, who is mostly attracted to women I have always felt sympathy for trans gender people.
And I learned a lot like a transgender woman does not have to be taken for granted to be attracted to men, She can als be attracted to women, to other trans women or both men and women..
What ever their preferences are it is about love.
And what is wrong with that.
The pas few weeks I learned a lot more about what makes trans gender people to what and who they are. 

Believe me I had a lot to learn and I am still learning, because I want to..
I am not one of these conservative minds that won't take information because it goes against what I have been told in my up bringing.

What I have learned is a little on a side track of what I have learned in my life.
Like when having a penis or vagina does not necessarily make you a man of a woman.
It does represent your reproduction functionality, Sex is your equipment. but what happens in the brain is something different.

The brain is the most powerful sex organ any person possesses.
How sexuality develops is all in the brain.
Sometimes a female personality develops in the body with male reproduction organs.
This is not a mental disorder this is a perfectly fine personality with all the love and desires in the wrong body.
In my curiosity I have spoken to several trans women, was intimate with a few and was always struck by their kindness and honesty.
A trait I missed in most women I had relations with.
Like I mentioned earlier I am a man mostly attracted to women, but now trans women have my preference. 

There is one American transgender woman who I recently met on Twitter who confirmed what I knew inside..
I totally fell in love with her, there is no age gap, she is smart sweet and I think she is absolutely beautiful.
Bur I am here in the Netherlands and she is in the USA  and this can be a barrier..

I won't mention her name because however we have a lovely contact, I am not yet sure if the feelling is mutual.

Yes I am in love with a trans woman. 
And that on my age..

There is a weird thing on the moon

Repost from 2014 to correct the text color

I often encounter radical Atheists, who not only NOT believe in (any) god, but as it looks like they believe nothing  and dismiss every question mark added to official statements as a hoax or conspiracy theory..
Myself I am hugely skeptical about these things , but I think is is foolish to dismiss it this way like hogwash.
I can give you an example of what intrigues so much I am doing research on all the things I can find about it and doing the usual thing like cutting away the bullshit until I reach something that cannot be cut away because it simply is there and there is evidence to prove it .

The following is one of these things and I had a discussion about it on some discussion website and the Question was " would you rather go to the moon or to mars and I chose the option I would rather go to the moon..

If it was only do see what the hell this thing is : I don't know if the top picture is real or part of a hoax created  However the second picture is real and if you enlarge it you will see it as taken from Apollo 11 in 1969

space ship or hoax ?

Original data:
Image Collection:  Panoramic
Mission:  15
Magazine:  P
Revolution:  38
Latitude / Longitude:  19° S / 117.5° E
Lens Focal Length:  24 inch
Camera Look:  Forward
Camera Altitude:  117 km
Sun Elevation:  27°Stereo Pair:  AS15-P-9630
Film Type:  3414

Click here to see the original Apollo filmstrip


Is it so crazy that I am curious ? But guess what happens when I share this with other, mostly American atheists and skeptics suddenly the skeptical part is gone and they apparently just wave the curiosity away and dismiss any evidence or indications  as a hoax or a conspiracy theory.
Isn't that the same thing as Christians do ? they tend to ignore the proof about their beliefs being based on fantasies and dismiss them the same way as their indoctrination has taught them to..
To my opinion -EX Christian- Atheist skeptics aren't skeptical at all this way.
In my book Skeptical means being open minded but evaluate things and cut a way the crap to see what will be left over .
These kind of Atheists just dismiss these things like this example of that thing on the moon..
Read what I got from an American agnostic/when I brought this example up
Mind that I already explained, I am not a UFO freak or conspiracy theorist about the government hiding stuff  AND that I already have been cutting away the things I have my serious doubts about..
Guess what I got from an American agnostic/when I brought this example up?

"It is Just a rock"  that was it ..  No interest, no curiosity, just dismissal..


trying to spark a little curiosity in him I answered :


Ok if it is "a rock" how did that rock get there ? There were no ice ages and no erosion on the moon. There are no no bolders on the moon as we know them..
There is no force on the moon that can have pushed it there
How about a rock that looks like it's "nose" is painted in another color? And this odd bulge on top of it ?

It cannot have fallen there from outer space because it is not in the center of the crater but actually rests along side the slope of a more a less oval shaped shallow hole close to the Iszak crater (which really is an impact crater)
Notice it is like 3.5 mile long and about 3rd of a mile in diameter
It's an abnormality, like it does not belong there ..

Again I am very skeptical about the hype about it on youtube and these UFO "science" websites... Even if it IS a rock I just REALLY would like to see it for real from up close ..

His answer:

how did a rock get there?????? The moon is covered with ROCKS as the moon is made up of rocks, not green cheese as some have tried to make us believe. :)).


Even jokingly, to my opinion this is a defense of his dismissal of my arguments so I gave him another reply:
You are so rigid in your opinion that you totally ignore anything else.
Sure the moon surface has countless rocks but no ROUND rocks because there is no erosion and this thing does not only have no sharp edges it is way too big to be a rock and that is what makes it so weird.

And of course he chose the easy way out:

(quote)"Notice it is like 3.5 mile long and about 3rd of a mile in diameter
It's an abnormality, like it does not belong there .." (quote)
Rounded because of lack of erosion, please. Have you ever seen a rock that size not "Rounded" And there is slight erosion on the moon, trillions and trillions of particles streaming in from space over billions of years tend to round edges. Where do you think all the moon dust comes from.


I have done some reading about moon dust to know that it is completely different than what we call sand and I explained that to him:

Moondust under a microscope

 you are using religious arguments like "were you there" and this erosion you talk about is nothing compared to earth erosion where everything  constantly is in motion..
The moon dust is most probably the pulverized rock that is the result of millions of meteorite impacts
Moon dust is generally very sharp edged compared to earth dust.
Why? there is no erosion on the moon.

 
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Sand under a microscope

Earth dust (we call sand) is generally rounded without sharp edges. Guess why ..

This thing I refer to has not fallen to the moon like an asteroid because there is no crater
Did you look at the original photo strip?
(when you view it it is the original size) the Iszak crater  on the same strip shows a real impact crater..
If an asteroid of the size of this weird object had impacted there , the crater would have been immense still it is just laying there on the slope of this hole ...
You can deny it as much as you want but it does not change that it is still there.

I am still waiting for his answer, but it will probably never come , same as what happens when I out-argue a religious believer..
I had no intention to force my opinion about this moon thing on him, I only wanted to explain to him WHY I would so much to see this thing with my own eyes from up close - I want to know - and isn't this what human life is about ? Curiosity ?  Finding plausible explanations that can be scientifically proven ?
We are living in a time of discovery and gaining knowledge..
When Skeptical becomes Dismissal it is only a few steps away from Dogma, all the open mindedness, inquisitiveness and freethinking and most of  all THINKING FOR YOURSELF  is thrown out of the window..

Ane personally I find this very disturbing..

The Usa, the worst modern nation in the world.

I wanted to make a whole story about this but after finishing the list I felt rather depressed..

Here is the short list in what the Unites States of America is the worst country in the developed western world::

•  Education 
•  Human rights, 
•  Incarcerated citizens 
•  Police brutality 
•  Police killings 
•  Mass shootings 
•  Gun related crime 
•  Crime in general 
•  Health Care 
•  Repeated teen pregnancies 
• 1st day infant mortality 
•  People -per capita- living below the poverty line 
•  Disaster management 
•  Biased manipulation by news media 
•  Accidental deaths called by gunfire 
•  Religious insanity.

This just comes from the top of my head, but I bet you can Google many more examples and it will become a very long list..

The path to hell is paved with corporate donations to politicians...  

The Roman Catholic Church, Lots of Blood and a little Democracy..

Democracy created the Roman Catholic church.
Democracy created the bible, who would ever thought of that..

There is a bit of parody in this and it would even be funny if it didn't take so many human lives in the process since the birth of Christianity..

I always loved to read comics about super heroes like Batman, Superman, Spiderman, the flash and all the others. Fortunately when I was young a buddy of mine had all of them so for a Dutch guy I know just as much of the Marvel and DC super heroes as the average American does.
Being the superhero fan as I am , a short while ago I went to watch Batman v Superman on the big screen, it was a private showing  in my country with only invited guests. In that case it is not bad to be friends with the stage master/camera operator of the movie theater.
As always I was impressed by the experience, the overwhelming huge screen, the massive surround experience and that usually that results in nightly after effects. This movie was no exception, I had a few vivid dreams about it and in one of them I was a clueless cop meeting Batman, the Christian Bale version, who needed my help to spread the word around that justice had come to Gotham and everyone needed to know about it. I had this "HUH?  they already know you all over the world" moment but I just went with the flow..  I am an active dreamer and most of the times I remember them in detail.

Original Moses Comic 376 BC

Now go back in time like 1700 years in history, there were also superheroes in that time, and for who could read their stories were written down in chronicles describing every detail. The figures of that time were people like Moses, who had his mighty staff that could part the waters of a sea, Noah with his mighty ark who saved humanity from extinction, David who used his sling shot to throw the stone that defeated the first super villain Goliath..
It sounds farfetched, but that was how these stories started, as individual chronicles and that was the way they were read or were told.

Roman emperor Constantine the great also had read the stories of the great heroes of the past and also the stories about Jesus doing his miracles
This probably gave him similar experiences as I had after seeing Batman/Superman. He  had a vivid dream about him being visited by Jesus telling him that justice had come to Rome and needing Constantine to help getting him known all over the empire.
Of course lucid dreams dreams were many times seen as divine revelations. In his mind Constantine had experiences one of these visions that possibly could restore the crumbling roman empire back to glory.
In modern words he delegated a committee to mold this in to a form that should become the standard of the new empire of the christian cross. Let's face it, this  was way too much work for a single man, even if he was the Emperor of the known world.
As it was meant to be to be something including everything and everyone, it was done under the especially chosen late Latin word Catholicus that came from the Greek "Kathilikos" meaning Universal. Because it would apply to the empire of Rome it became the Roman Catholic Doctrine which needed a handbook woth collected Chronicles testifying of the great might of Jesus.
The committee named the Council of Nicaea was mainly bitching about what would and what would not be included in this handbook so they finally decide to use democracy to decide what would be included. Not the people would decide, it was not yet that time..  It was very simple one presented a book and there was a vote by show of hands about what would be included in the holy handbook that would become the Bible
 

The real Catholic symbol

But only Jesus was not enough, like all ancient gods there also was family like structure like a mother and child and a father god in charge, So mother Mary also stepped in the chain of worship, weather this was to make the religion more understandable to the peasants I don't know, but confusing it is, the father son and holy spirit all in one or one in all? where's Mary ?
 
The christening of the people could begin, and the procedure was simple, accept the Roman Catholic dogma or be killed. and from that moment on the path would be paved with blood.
Eventually the Roman Empire fell, or did it ? Maybe as a "state"  it fell, but not as a (known) world dominating religious power, the new emperor was now called the pope and every new pope was to be  more a less elected by a committee by a show of hands a procedure that is still custom today

The fall of the Roman empire did not slow down the bloody trail of Christianity,  it kept expanding it's religious empire with no considerations about human lives. The roman Empire still exists, it is now called The Roman Catholic Church and it still has its lines of influence in most christian counties and it still is responsible for huge loss of human life, not like before, but by controlling it's followers Using the same method that has been proven for 16 centuries, controlling the sexual life of it's followers. This has turned out to be so effective planting this in people's minds that also the split off  heretic protestant churches still use the indoctrination method of sexual oppression to ensure the obedience of their subjects..  You read it right, its subjects, every religion is an empire by itself, there is always a person in charge like an emperor over the people..  Now a days the indoctrination process has been so perfected, their subjects can be lead in to war, in to hating other religions, people with other skin pigmentation, or just people who refuse to accept their religious ideas..

What do I hear ? The Roman Catholic Church is not bloody anymore you say ?

Perhaps that  true in the literary sense, but let me remind you,  there STILL is an AIDS epidemic in the world, mostly in Africa
The Roman Catholic Church is mainly to blame as they are still banning the use of condoms because making more babies for the church is part of their dogma which cannot be deviated from and is more important than human life .  Because of that dogma the Roman Catholic Church is still spreading the insane lies that condoms cannot prevent the spreading of aids..
All the blood of lives lost to aids in Africa is on the hands of the Roman Catholic Church

If Constantine the great had choked to death in that particular dream?
The world would probably be a bit different without a Roman Catholic Church manipulating history for over 16 centuries

Hundreds of Child abuse by Catholic Priest cases Handled behind closed doors the Netherlands

This is really disturbing for me as a Dutch citizen.

For the people who have been living under a rock the past 25 years let me explain what is happening:

The Roman Catholic Church is involved in an immense scandal concerning sexual child abuse perpetrated by their priests. First it came in the news as incidents, but thanks to the internet many thousands more people came forward as being abused by priests in their childhood.
This scandal could very well be the reason that Pope Benedict XVI  -Joseph Aloisius Ratzinger- resigned on 28 February 2013. Usually the position of Pope is from installment until the end of his life. Of the 264 popes before him only five times there was a resignation.

 

Picture ANP

In a small country as the Belgium today the official number of reported cases of sexual abuse of children by Catholic priests currently is 1064. In the Netherlands where the Catholic church is less dominant, the independent Deetman Committee  was installed to investigate the number of coverups by the catholic Curch. Deetman was granted access to church files that initially were reported as destroyed. Files that containing data about tens of thousands of children that were entrusted to priests. The committee also collected private statements about sexual child abuse from well over 2000 people. Sofar 1045 of these reported cases have been handled.
 

Here is where the fishy stuff starts

At least one third of these cases were handled in secret, behind closed doors and this is remarkable because the committee had promised full disclosure.

 

Picture:  clericalwhispers.blogspot.com

The dutch news paper NRC has obtained internal documents that confirm cases that were settled outside the official procedure, and this was explicitly against the recommendations of the Deetman Committee.
Full Disclosure would be the foundation of the investigation and for that reason a foundation of management and monitoring was born that would oversee the procedures of complaints and compensation.

Until January this year about 700 of these cases were handled by this foundation and in total 21.3 million Euro in damages were awarded. According to NRC, in the 34% of cases that were handled in secret, another 10 million Euro were awarded. This was real Cloak and Dagger stuff.  To receive compensation the victims had to sign a non disclosure contract and on top of that, the victims are no longer allowed to talk about the sexual abuse and its perpetrators..

Does this qualify ad a coverup or not ?
So the names of these Pedophiles among the Roman Catholic priests will remain a secret and the perpetrators will stay under their protection, the chance that the overall majority of these sexual predators will ever see one single day in prison is extremely slim..

Who needs conspiracy theories about Illuminati , the Bilderberg group?  we have one hell of a secret organization residing in Rome  called the Catholic Curch.

Stop being Islamophobic ? Give me a break..

Often I am disturbed that atheists, progressives, and even feminists always go in the defensive when the subject comes to the Islam.  I am really surprised of the feminists defending a religion that is so condescending about women as Islam. This is such a a woman hating religion that their fundamentalists not even allow a woman to experience pleasure in having sex, and they do this by simply cut away the clitoris of female children.......  Yes cut away the clitoris of female children.
In these circles women are not allowed to do anything without a male present, they are seen as property, and even live stock has more freedom to move than women. If a woman in the Muslim world gets raped SHE will most of the times end up in prison, NOT the rapists.
And feminists talk about patriarchy and rape culture? The Islam is patriarchy and rape culture on steroids. 

contradiction in terminis?

Sure there are gradations in fanaticism in the Islam, but even the most modest Muslims are way behind compared to the most fanatic fundamental Christians who are by themselves far behind in the modern world.
But defending a backward religion by calling its critics Islamophobic? as this is equal to Islam hater?
NO it isn't the same, I AM AN ISLAMOPHOBE, do you know why ? It means being scared of Islam, Because Islam is scary as hell. I really hope that this picture on the left is meant sarcastically because if it isn't, it portrays Islam rather well..

But Christians have the same problem as Islam, they think THEY are better , because they have the Bible and the true faith.. obviously Christians have their head buried deeper in their holy bible than in factual history books.

The christian history of the past 1800 years isn't exactly a shiny example of peace and harmony. After Constantine the Great got his delusion that Christ visited him and told him to follow the symbol of the cross, the christian dogma started spreading the faith by violence. People who didn't want to convert were beheaded, their heads stuck on poles hey where have I heard that before? or executed by mass hangings to scare the people in to obedience to Christianity..  there was no choice..  This form of Christianity became known as the Catholic Church, coming from the Greek language: katholikos meaning 'the whole' , sounds pretty totalitarian to me. 
To current standards the Catholic church would have been a terrorist organization plain and simple, their 'spreading the gospel' consisted in violent intimidation and putting brutal terror upon the people to teach them who's Boss.
The Catholic Church was also very good in disguising their terrorism as holy tasks, for example: to purify the souls of the heathens by fire burning these troubling buggers alive so God could show his infinite mercy upon them..
By the 16th century the Catholic church had it's strangle hold on most of Europe and maintained it's power by sheer terror..  

My small country, the current Netherlands, especially suffered under this tyranny in a very bloody way because the people were very self conscious and outspoken about justice and this was not what the catholic church was about.
That was he time of the Spanish inquisition, torture and  draconian punishment for heretics as the Dutch people were called..
That was the time  the Netherlands just were another Spanish property that needed to be straightened out.
That was the time of terror when the Netherlands was the only region that dared to challenged the might of the Catholic Church and the Spanish King..
That was the time of a terrible loss of lives all in the name of the church of the Christ.. 

The original Dutch declaration
of independence

Finaly the Dutch had more than enough of this bullshit (they probably used a different terminology that time) and on July 26 1581 they declared their independence from Spain. This is history very simplified because it took lots more to get rid of the power of Spain. Even during that time the Netherlands became a safe haven for religious refugees, the first country with freedom of religion, even though it was not yet in the constitution. which was another novelty the new dutch government was studying...

However,  if the Roman Catholic Church was a terrorist organization in the purest definition of the word, the "heretics" became something even worse, like the Puritans, the first christian extremists, they eventually fled the Netherlands to the new Americas. and this is a horror story by itself.
OK let me return to the Catholic Church. Its reign of terror lasted for another hundred more years and finally they cut their losses and that was more a less the end of the dark ages in Europe and the start of the renaissance  the time of enlightenment  .
Now the Spaniards and the Portuguese found new territory to spread  the message of Christianity (dark ages) and the whole thing started all over in south America. All the current riches of the Vatican were robbed from the native South Americans. The Catholic church was again doing what they did the best, terrorizing people to convert them to their Christianity.. 

Nowadays, we have a so called progressive Pope.. Well OK, sofar I give him the benefit of the doubt.
The Pope before him, Benedict XI Joseph Ratzinger, stepped down because of the child rape scandal in which he played an active part.. 
Come on, did you really think it was something else ?? Everyone with a little bit of sense knows that if this would become public it would make the catholic church collapse like a house of cards, but we also know that the Catholic church is very good in keeping secrets, so now there is one more added to the list.

But is there change? Nah forget it, they are still lying to the African people that condoms are bad and Child rape is still kept secret, beside maybe an incidental case where some of the "priests" are convicted for child abuse..

The Catholic Church was a scary organization, and now we have a new scary threat of the same magnitude
This time the modern bringers of true faith, are the followers of Islam.
This time the modern bringers of true faith  have modern weapons and access to scary technology..
 
YES I am an ISLAMOPHOBE because I see the danger of fanatic religion and it scares the living shit out of me! It should do the same to everyone whith his/her yes feminists I mean you head screwed on in the correct way.
But hey,  we have to respect the Muslims, pamper them, maybe they will mellow down..

          SURE THEY WILL, IN ABOUT 700 YEARS FROM NOW..

Future prediction for 2016, a new terrorist event before november this year.

I don't have a crystal ball, no tarot cards, no tea leaves and I am not a psychic.. Still I have a dark prediction to make for the coming year.. Let me elaborate, In he presidential elections that made Barack Obama president of the USA where Obama had in John McCain the last political experienced competitor (am leaving Sarah Palin out of the equation), Since that time the American Republican Party has not produced one single SANE presidential candidate. With the elections of 2012 the insanity entered the ranks of republican nominees for the presidential elections mow with the coming elections in 2016, there is not a single one of the republican nominees who even deserves the benefit of the doubt..

Benito Trump

It is like the lunatics haven taken over the republican funny-farm. They are not only delusional and religiously insane and Donald Trump the best they can produce is a racist maniac who plays the public in a way that will make Adolf Hitler and Benito Mussolini spin with envy in their proverbial graves.. The only thing he knows to do is scapegoating with mainly Mexicans and Muslims as targets, like Hitler did with Bolsheviks and Jews. His fans can deny this happening until they they are blue in the face but the truth is, THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT TRUMP IS DOING. The insanity surrounds this excuse for a candidate and should he for some disturbed reason become President and with that Commander and Chief of the most powerful country I fear for the future of our world in the most serious way possible.. The ONLY possibility that this lunatic will become president is when the political environment experiences a radical change like a new war, a new 911 will take place..
Knowing the level of insane dishonesty in the Republican ranks I will make the following dark future prediction:

Between march 2016 and November  2016 there will be a new worldwide crossroad incident, like a big terrorist attack, a series of attacks on USA soil, or anywhere else where American citizens will be the target, and this will tip the scale into  the favor of Donald Trump and this will be the beginning of new wars or WORSE.

If this happens there will be no doubt whatsoever in my mind that this will be a by Republicans orchestrated lie of the caliber that the whole world will become to resent and regret..

Oh my, I so much hope I will be wrong SO wrong..
I really don't want to say I TOLD YOU SO.... but if I am will, remember this blog of march 13 2016

The gay who was inlove with me..

Have you ever seen this, the obviously gay kid at school being punched and bullied?
Well I was bullied for being fat, and when I grew up I became active against bullies, not in the activist way, but kicking their asses and intimidating them to stop their abuse..
But that is not what I wanted to say here

When I was in my early thirties, in a pub a young guy, maybe twenty-something joined me at the bar and I noticed right away he was nervous..
We talked a little and then out of the blue, he told me he was in love with me..
This surprised me, I would have expected anything but that.. I looked at him and yes I saw that glow that only shows when someone is in love, then his expression turned nervous again , ready to duck for a punch. 
But I have been raised to accept other people as they are and I wasn't ignorant about homosexuality. 
However, since I am not gay,  I looked him in the eyes and said: "Look, I am very flattered, but I don't have anything to offer you, I like girls..".
He relaxed, "Well I just had to try, even if it meant the risk of you punching me in the face"
I replied, "why would I do that ? you just told me a sweet thing, I just have to decline, I am not gay" 
We talked for a while, and then he left and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.. He was just a sweet gay kid..
Of course my friends there in the pub made fun of me that evening, but I just went with it because I knew  also for my friends, it wasn't a big deal just an opportunity to be silly..  I chose my friends carefully  

Gay wedding cake

I met him a few times after that and years later he surprised me once again, he asked me to be the best man at his wedding, -yes a gay wedding- , one of the first here in the Netherlands and I told him I would be honored and I accepted..
Even though my open minded upbringing it felt awkward but that wore off, it was a nice wedding, a nice wedding party, and again a guy wanted to get close to me..  and again I answered him that I like women..  But it was not a big deal we had fun I sang a few songs with the band and that was it.
It was an enriching experience and thanks to that I have a number of gay friends who accept me as being straight, as I accept them as being gay.

Shit we are all humans, we all have different feelings , but that does not make one less than the other..
And Bullies ?  I think that they are so ashamed of themselves that they need to hide that by taking it out on others, preferably easy victims who are afraid to fight back..
Bullies are just plain disgusting, however some of them come to realize what kinds of assholes they have been, and my bullies actually apologized to me, many years later.. That also took much courage and I accepted their apologizes after all, people can change to the better.. 

Where will we REALLY go after we die ?

Every one knows the religious answer of  going to heaven ..
I am not going in to this because I dismiss it as a bedtime story to ease ,or if you are afraid to end up in the other place, increase the fear of dying in people..
That's religion for you..

I believe, no I KNOW that death will be like a dreamless sleep of eternal unawareness which has no return, no suffering, no joy I will just no longer be there..
Like one of my most favorite quotes in life:

“I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.”
Mark twain


My story maybe not much of a reassurance, but I prefer reality, and this has more beauty and  wonder than religion can ever promise.
We are all made of molecules and elements forged in ancient stars that explosively died long ago and spread their mater all over the universe.. most of the atoms in our bodies may have their origin millions of light years apart from each other.
We all will be going where we and every other life form that ever lived on earth is going. back to the  unaware molecular state of separate molecules and elements that we were made of..
But it is the travel there is a story worth telling and starts the moment you die.
Suppose they bury you under a tree, that will be the departure of your journey.
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For example like this one It's in Littleton, just outside of Denver, at Littleton Cemetery, The grave is under a tree right by one of the gates..It is very real.

At first part of your chemical make up will end up in that tree and every living form around it like plants insects microbes that will carry your molecules further on
In a sense part of you will live on in that  tree until it dies and it will be well possible that few of your atoms and molecules will travel on in new humans and other life forms on earth for billions of years until our sun eventually will die , most likely after violently expanding and  swallowing up most of the planets ..

 

Perhaps it will become nova en destroying the whole solar system and sending all matter back to the universe and from where it came to make new stars and new life in another place in the galaxy..

Personally I find this an epic adventure, far better than spending eternity worshiping some jealous attention craving ancient war god, Yahweh Sabaoth.. (Yahweh, lord of armies)
The only thing I kinda regret is that I will not aware of all this happening, because I will have been returned to the state of non existence, as I was billions of years before I was born...